Got tagged by Jenn sometime ago… Decided to do it today!

RULES:
1. Write down who tagged you.
2. Answer these:
* your name / username / pseudo
* right-handed or left-handed?
* your favorite letters to write?
* your least favorite letters to write?
* Write “The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog”.
3. Tag five persons

While I was doing this, my mom kepoh and asked me what I’m doing. I just told her I got tagged by someone. She looked so confused. I tried to explain to her but realized that it’s actually meant nothing for her. So I just told her “Well, you won’t need it anyway. You won’t need this in your daily life.” Then she just nodded and continue to help me tidy up my room. L0L. Then when I started typing on the keyboard again, she asked me if I got tagged by someone again. Haha. Damn cute!

So, ok, those 5 person, hopefully you’ll do it la because I never see some of your handwriting. So I’m quite curious.

说回来并不是完全没在害怕的。

虽然已经离开了曾经是个噩梦的地方，可是现在大家都已经在世界各地（努力？）地生活。所以在这里见到以前的朋友的几率还是很高。

我还是那个很缺乏安全感的人。

没有办法，创下的伤是没有办法完全恢复的，反而会留下阴影。

才回来了一个月，就已经遇到两个以前认识的人。

为何我用了“认识的人”而不是“朋友”呢？

因为我不觉得我们还是朋友了。

第一次是我和男朋友和他的朋友一起去Williams喝茶时遇见的。我的感觉很灵敏。发现不对劲。原来碰到认识的人。我假装我不认得他，他好像也假装不认得我。只是他多看了我几眼。我庆幸那天我戴着我的眼镜。

第二次是我和男朋友在1U看戏前在Old Town Kopitiam里吃晚饭时遇到的。他一走进来，我就认得他了。这次这个人曾经还和我蛮熟的，所以我紧张了。本来还在和男朋友玩闹的，我立刻变得很不自在，告诉他那个人是我认识的。男朋友却很酷地对我说：“Who cares?”我才没那么紧张，继续把饭吃完。我不知道他是否认得我。毕竟我们已经有大概6年没见面了。

最近发现原来我差一点又和另一个认识的人遇到。可是，我们并没有相遇。而这个曾经是我的男朋友。我有点庆幸没相遇，因为这个会是非常地尴尬的画面。

遇见，没遇见，是注定了的。

我不知道我还会偶然地遇到谁。

可是请别怪我没有主动地向你们打招呼，因为有些东西是真的伤害过我的。

不是放不放得开的问题，也不是原不原谅的问题，只是不论时间过了多久，那伤口依然在隐隐作痛。

新朋友，我不想向他们提起以往的事。

而旧朋友呢，我觉得我也不需要一直在向他们提起了。

反正我也没几个旧朋友。（笑）

我在想下个星期我又会遇见谁呢？

1. I’m selling my used luggage. They’re still in great condition as I just used them for two times. Hop over now to see the photos & description!

2. My BFFBobo has her own domain now!!! Go over to say hello!!! I know how much you people like her… *pssst: I always have people telling me something goes like this “Hey Zoe, I read your blog… And… I like your friend, Bobo, so much! She’s so pretty!” So now go and continue to read her blog there!

3. Jenn also has her own domain! She’s great in reviewing beauty products and make-up stuff especially M.A.C. so if you ever need any information about those two things, just read them at her blog!

4. I still don’t get to watch Transformer 2 this week! Damn what the fuck! .l.

5. I’m gonna clear my wardrobe and continue to sell my used items at there! So feel free to go over once in a while to see if I update with anything there.

6. I’m addicted to The Sims 3!

Ok la I think that’s about it for now! I have a lot more to say… ’cause I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately. Besides that, I still have a lot of backdated entries! L0L. But I’ll write those later. Or maybe now in case I forget. But that’ll be later.

Real time update here…

Playing The Sims 3 and online at Data Center while boyfriend is fixing servers! Guess which Data Center I’m at!

I just got back from Penang yesterday. And for those who didn’t know and/or cannot read Chinese, my grandpa has just passed away. It was so sudden that all of us was so shocked. The tears just rolled down once my parents told me.

I thought I wouldn’t cry… But I cried during the first prayer. Then I cried again when I slept. And on the last night, I cried during the prayer when I had to say out louder to ask my grandpa to cross the Bridge of No Return (奈何桥). I thought I wouldn’t cry at first. But the voice wasn’t coming out from my mouth and I cried before I knew it, tears started rolling down and I had to pull myself together to say it out. After that ceremony, we had to burn the paper house, paper dolls, and such for him. Before we burnt it, we had to ask my grandpa to enter the paper house. Again, I couldn’t say it out. I had to force myself to say it. It was like why my grandpa had to enter the paper house!

On the first night when I arrived at Penang, my aunt was telling the lil cousins if they know what happened to my grandpa. The cousins said they know. And my aunt said “Grandpa won’t be answering you the next time you call him, you know?”, then she also said “Grandpa won’t be hitting your buttock anymore” as my grandpa always like to say “谁不听话的，过来给爷爷打屁股”. And the small kids would just let him pat on the buttock although they weren’t naughty. It has became like something to do when you visit him. It’s like he’s playing with you so he actually just pat on the buttock. My grandpa also always told us that English is very important until my cousins still joked about it yesterday. But we won’t be hearing all these anymore.

It just feels so weird not having my grandpa in the house anymore. Although he didn’t talk a lot to us, he’s always sitting there listening what we talked. And when he talked to us, he usually lectured us.

Yesterday we looked at him for the one last time before we burried him.

I did not cry.

I really think we shouldn’t be too sad because grandpa did what he said. He mentioned that he wouldn’t drag if he’s going to die. He did what he said. He refuse to wear the oxygen mask and that’s why he passed away so fast. So fast that they didn’t even have enough time to send him home. So fast that my parents couldn’t reach the hospital in time to see him one last time before he passed away. So fast that even my dad still thought my grandpa was sitting at his usual corner drinking coffee. So fast that my cousins cried so hard. So fast that all of us (cousins who stay/work outside Penang) rushed back almost immediately.

I have more things to say but I don’t know how to put in words. Too hard to express.

Now the tough decision is where my grandma should stay at. Because seriously I don’t think the staying with the maid in the house is a good option… That maid is an asshole! But that will be a decision made among my mom and her siblings.

Anyway, I’m okay now. Don’t worry. And I think I’m really lucky to have few but good friends. SoonHan and SoonThing helped me to buy the DragonBalls because my stupid boyfriend wants to eat and I cannot just go and buy without helping out at the funeral. They came to the hotel I stayed at around 1am and talked until 4am. I’m so grateful that they did that favor for me and also refused to take the money because they gave it to me as the 白金.

Already. I’m going to play The Sims 3.

May everyone appreciate and enjoy their life as much as they could!