Talking About Friendship

I’m quite upset. Well, it’s more on disappointment.

She used to be one of my close friends. One of the friends that were pretty close with me. We shared our bitter memories together, and coincidently our ex-boyfriends are brothers.

We are sharing the same star - pisces. We felt that is some kind of connection between us, and there I trusted her with my whole heart. We used to write letters to each other. Yeah, letter. The snail mail. Not e-mail although we both are quite pretty into the online thingy. But we wrote snail mail still. We used to phone each other as well to share our problem. I really thought she was my close friends. Perhaps, best friend.

However, things didn’t go that smoothly. Ever since I came to KL to further my study, we didn’t really keep in touch. And once we both dislike a girl, but somehow now she loves this girl more than me. Oh yeah, me the sour grape! I admit. Because how can she suddenly loves this girl more than me while she’s the one who told me that she dislike her as well?

Funny, isn’t it? I don’t know since when they become so called sisters. And they did go out on her birthday. I was pretty sad at first when I knew about it. She was thanking everyone doing so much for her birthday.. And for once I wasn’t in the list. I wasn’t. I was unhappy. It might sounds very childish. But don’t you feel that way after you did do something for her birthday?

And now.. In her Friendster profile, in that long list of ‘who I want to meet’, again, I’m not in the list. And I found that girl’s name. She said that girl is her gal. I read her latest entry in her blog as well. She said that girl is her best mui mui. And I’m not even mentioned in that entry. Not even a bit.

I’m not narrow-minded or what-so-ever. I do understand not everyone can be anyone’s friend. But is it our friendship can just sweeped away like that after what we have been through?

Now you talking about friendship uh? I just don’t think that I’m even someone you care about. I know deep down inside my heart, if anything happen to her, I’ll still try my best to help her. If you’re reading this, and if you know I’m talking about you, you should know how heartache I am.