Recently, my life has been such a mess.

It’s really stressful to deal with expectation from everyone. Whether it’s at work, from friends, the family or the boyfriend. I’m trying my very best to fulfill everyone’s expectation.

But it’s getting harder. I don’t have much time now. I didn’t have enough of sleep everyday and sometimes I drive with my eyes shut.

Where’s my dream? Where’s my hope?

Where’s the people I need?

They actually don’t care as much as I thought they’d be. They made up stories to make me look bad to others.

Who’s real? Who’s pretentious?

Who can I trust?

Or, I should just start making my own totem and believe what I *should* believe…

2010 has not been a great year. But I know some people that I love really love me too. They keep giving me hope and pulling me up from this whole thing.

But I need something stronger than that.

I feel that I’m not listened to.

I need someone to hear me. Listen to what I have to say, instead of what you have to say.

Can’t we just switch roles once in a while? Or at least just for this one time?

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1. Belief
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3. Love Hope Courage
4. Are you ready for CNY 2010?
5. Fear

Tags: Malaysia, Personal

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