I’ve been feeling a little low lately. I don’t know if it’s the fact that I’m tired of this city or if I just learned few weeks ago that my best friends are leaving me all alone here in Malaysia by 2015.
I definitely don’t mean to sound bossy but I love my best friends and they mean a lot to me. I certainly wish they are well and they are going to be doing something different and exploring different cities in the world. But I can’t help but to feel sad about it and wonder who I can run into when I have problem in the future (besides family & Duffy, of course!).
They are going to be scattered in different cities such as Tokyo/Hong Kong, somewhere in Australia as well as Seattle. Some are already having adventures and creating precious memories at Beijing/Taipei, Hong Kong (& potentially somewhere in Germany) and Singapore. Even a two-way flight ticket to Singapore costs a bomb these days. At least it is for me. That means I can barely see them anymore, especially the one in Seattle (or Germany, but that’s uncertain).
It makes me think so much about friendship lately. Friends that I’ve spent a fortune (maybe it wasn’t for you but it was for me when I was unemployed) on don’t talk to me anymore. Friends that you used to cross oceans for stop caring for you.
& friends that still care for you genuinely are leaving you. I totally understand that they are not leaving me as per se. But they’re not exactly just one phone call away either.
I miss going out with my best friends. We may get annoyed by each other at times but we actually enjoyed each other’s company. We may be drifted but we always go back to each other at the end of the day. We may not talk as often as we used to, but we update each other in any case of emergency.
I guess I’m just worried or even afraid that they will forget about me eventually. Like, I’ve never existed in their lives. Because I know they have made and still continue making a lot of impacts to my life. I was/am encouraged & inspired by them. They made me believe in myself and supported me through & through. I just wished that I could live in the same cities as them. It’s hard to pick a favorite one because each of them are unique & special in their own ways.
To all my best friends, I’d cross oceans for you. We may not be the best of friends in the future, but I swear we are at this moment. I love you all. Whatever happens in the future, just remember we have had each other yesteryears and today. <3