Something must be really wrong with me, because quite a number of people are not responding to me/replying my text/whatsapp/whatever along that form of communication tools.

OR am I the one who is obsessed with replying/responding to others?

Hmmmmmm.

Woke up pretty damn early today and the conversation I had with ChingMan and Venus at Cova randomly came into my mind.

Venus was saying how guys have stopped doing what they are supposed to do to get the girls to be their girlfriends.

They stop dating you, asking you out for proper dates. Like, dinners & movies.

Yes, it IS quite sad. People don’t enjoy/appreciate the old-fashioned dating styles anymore.

As much as I think I’m a feminist in a lot of ways, I still think that there are certain things guys gotta to do to show that sincerity that they really want & need you in their lives.

All talk & no action is nothing.

Yet, girls fall into it.

Not quite sure how to put this, but I don’t want to be another fool.

Because “only fools rush in”.

Everyone is different & not everyone is like that. I know that well.

But you took away my ability to love, trust & believe in a romantic relationship.

Now, I have to add one more phobia & fear into my phobia list.

It’s ironic considering how much I often emphasize that 3 elements in life, now I just can’t do it anymore.

I am phony. You ARE phony.

You have scarred me for life.

While I was zrooming home on Monday’s night after a long day at work, I realized a car with a sticker that reads “Dream Chaser” was in front of me.

I was lost in the lalaland.

I have forgotten about my dream.

Am I chasing my dream now?

Or, is my dream trying to catch up with me?

I remember that dream now.

That dream I used to chase after. That dream I used to believe in.

I want to be that dream chaser again.