There is so much I want to talk about, right here right now.

But I’m so tired. I need time to clear this messy head, probably it’s good to start telling bff over lunch later.

But a lil preview of whatever has happened? Sure!

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‎*bam!* Fairytale has ended. I am right and that is true that there is no “they live happily ever after”.

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Happy 2012, it definitely started with a “bang”!

I just got back from the 2nd date with this guy who is really quiet. He’s technically my sister’s colleague as well as her friend. We’ve been talking since that night we had a drinking session (yeah, I actually went drinking with my sister’s colleagues when she didn’t even go dafuq).

He’s a lil quiet and shy, I guess. Or maybe still wasn’t comfortable with me yet. Or maybe I was too boring. D:

Especially when I’m not feeling well these few days with the constant headache, sore-throat & runny nose. Must be the OT and the stress! Fuck year end, seriously. I don’t even know how my other colleagues handle the stress so well when their workloads are much heavier. 

So yes, I was saying I wasn’t feeling well so my energy’s level is really low for these few days. Not sure if I was actually too boring for anyone. However, this guy is really sweet! I don’t get it, why am I meeting these nice guys these days? Why didn’t I meet them earlier? Darl said it’s because we wouldn’t treasure the good ones if we don’t meet the bad ones. Meh, but I treasure everyone around me! 

The 1st date was so dramatic. But we got it sorted! We were actually deciding between Food Foundry and Hungry Hog. Food Foundry is nearby his place but Hungry Hog is nearby my place. So technically, it would be more convenient to dine at Hungry Hog but I was craving for something sweet that night! So he was like “Mille Crepe it is then!”

And… it was my sister’s birthday the next day, so he bought 2 pieces of the Mille Crepes for my sister AND my mom. I was like “Wah quite smart ah!” lolol

2nd date was shopping, dinner & MI-4! This guy kept asking me if I felt cold in the cinema and I told him no. Because I really wasn’t feeling cold. But I kept wondering what happened if I actually said yes. Is he gonna get a jacket from nowhere like *pooooffff* here’s a jacket? Hahaha… He also kept asking me if I was hungry. I don’t know what’s up with that, maybe I looked like I’ll eat a cow or something.  And it was really sweet when he actually got down the car to wait for me when he picked me up and got down the car again when he dropped me off. He’s the 2nd guy I know ever did this. I was totally kampung about it. I was like “ooooh what happened?!”

It’s like whenever I hang out with guys, I can’t help but to compare them with him.

I know I shouldn’t and it’s not healthy to do so. But I think I still need some time to adjust myself that I’m now really single. It’s happening. Even Mr Vampire said I have a wee bit of that I-have-a-boyfriend look on my face. He actually wasn’t sure if I was single… Dafuq.

Just in case if you’re wondering why I only talk about feelings & guys these days, that’s because there’s really nothing much going on in my life right besides work and more work. Gah. Looking like a 35 right now! But I promise next one will be filled with useless pictures.

Another week & it’ll be Christmas! Stay warm if you’re in a winter country and drink more water if you’re in a warm country (like Malaysia). <3

“Who’s that boy?”

That’s the question I get a lot recently.

Le mom, especially. She is my #1 fan when it comes to my love life. I think my parents are afraid & worried that I’ll get hurt badly again. I’ll never forget the #awkwardmoment when she walked into my room without knocking on the door (which usually she does) and saw me crying my heart out.

She was shocked (because I pretended as if I was all good when they’re around) and said “it’s not your fault that this happened, let it go.” & le dad said I was mentally abused for 7 years. 

Now even my colleagues asked about that question last night when Vampire (no longer philosopher, we got that fixed!) brought me McDee & Chatime when I had to OT at the office.

According to him, he was making sure that I’m still in the office by chatting with me and trying very hard to get McDee to my office asap so that ‘em fries won’t be soggy, and completed that with Chatime.

So much for McDee & Chatime.

I almost missed his call because I was listening to my iPod. Thank God for vibration! (Sounds wrong but whatever.) I picked up his call and he asked me to go down to the lobby. I was like “huh? Ok, hang on.”

When I got down, I saw him walking towards me, I was like “yo dude wtf are you doing here?”

Then I saw McDee’s paperbag. Not exactly warm fuzzy feeling, because I was in complete shock and the first thing that came into my mind was “are you tryna kill me?” since I was (and still am) having sore-throat!

He looked so guilty and didn’t know what to do with the McDee. Then it made me feel bad like I didn’t appreciate his nice gesture. -___- Seriously, so much for personal delivery.

So, anyway, I accepted it and it’s #awkwardmoment all over. I suck at dealing with #awkwardmoment and I’m seriously bad at flirting and/or wheedling. If someone comes up with a book with these topics, imma geddit!

I love this top but I think I should burn it since I’m not good at it!

I don’t even think we said proper goodbye… I was like waving my hand and told him that this is awkward byebye!

Sigh, I know right. I failed at being a girl. I think a perfectly normal girly girl would be like “OMGGGGG YOU BOUGHT ME MCDEE, AWWW YOU’RE SO SWEEEETTTTT!” in super high pitch tone.

Anyway, so I got back up to the office. It was only one colleague who noticed it at first, which became a trail of questions.

“WHAT, ZOE YOU GOT MCDEE! HOW CAN! WHY YOU NEVER ASK US TO PLACE ORDER TOGETHER?”

“Urgh, no… I didn’t…”

“WHAT!”

“I didn’t… Someone brought these for me.”

“WHO!”

“My friend…?”

“FEMALE OR MALE!”

“Male… WHY!!!!” (realized it’s weird how I got questioned like that)

“OOOOHHHHHHH” and everyone started teasing me.

I told one of them it’s Vampire (although he has no clue who I’m referring to & probably think I was suffering from brain damaged) and I told the rest “it’s someone”.

lololol

I didn’t know getting a personal delivery of McDee & Chatime could cause such a scene at work. 

Shared this with darl & bff.

Darl:”How can I not like him!!!”

Bff is the worst, really cannot count on her, because she actually said “wahh so good go get married already la.” Dafuq.

Yeah, so I ended my night with 1 paperbag from Topshop (retail therapy works all ze time!), Coach, tumbler bag, laptop bag & a Chatime in my hand. 

Le sis was right about all these.

When it just happened, she told me “let it go, you have to, if you don’t, you will never meet the right/better one”.

She told me to stop holding onto things that won’t work.

I didn’t believe her.

But now everything’s (almost) perfect!

The only thing that is less than perfect is that I stop believing in trust.

I used to beg him to go shopping with me and now the guys I hang out these days asked me if I wanna go shopping, some even offered to plan a day out just to shop & eat.

Yes, all things are nice & sweet in the beginning.

Boy thinks she’s the one; she thinks boy’s the one.

They do everything for each other.

& one day, boy is tired of her, so boy stops doing whatever he used to do for her.

Excitement is over. Love’s gone. He’s gone. She’s alone, again.

She can’t do anything anymore except wondering how the fuck things changed just like that.

There is no answer to it. There’s never an answer to it.

Since all good things come to an end eventually. So why bother hanging onto anything at all?

Why do I have to meet you now?